From fear to adventure: my transformation on the slopes - Les Menuires 2025

Wow. So hard I worked to be able to do this. Alone on a ski trip with my two daughters. On Friday evening we left beyond Luxembourg to spend the night in one of those motorway hotels. The more I overcome those fears, the stranger life becomes. Fear had become something of a goal in my life. A way of life. So if I start overcoming fears at a rapid pace, some kind of existential crisis is coming. What now? I have fought against fears all my life. Performing was a fight against fear. Now the question is whether I actually like performing. Now I make things happen more and I let magic happen. Energy.

But we are in Les Menuires. With Romée and Odile. What a victory. And how quiet I am in such a small apartment. Fear was never just a certain frame of mind. It was in my body. And with Connected Living in Agape I worked really hard on myself for 32 blocks. I gave it my all for 32 blocks and now I can finally reap the benefits. Fear. What an animal. Anxiety by Doechii is such a beautiful song that I recently got to know from Romée. Somebody's watching me, that's my anxiety. That's so right. That has been the fear all my life. People are watching. A bit like L'enfer, c'est les autres.

Here I am in an apartment in Les Menuires. Yesterday the three of us skied to Courchevel. Such a large area, not normal. Les 3 Vallées. Les Orres, Val Thorens, Les Menuires, Méribel and Courchevel. The weather has been beautiful here all week. Only sun. And warm. And still good snow. I thought that ski trip with Paulien could never be topped, but this is at least as fun and wonderful. Paradise.

Yesterday Romée had an accident. Probably a ski's thumb and she won't be allowed to ski anymore. That's a fucking bummer because I had so much fun skiing with the three of us. It was good for our band! And of course it still is. She is now looking at Casa de Papel. Fantastic series. So it's not all that bad. Maybe we'll try to ski down a slope tomorrow or Friday. Without ski poles then. She just can't fall on it again. Apparently something really stupid, a ski thumb. Because your hand is covered by a strap to avoid losing your skis, you can really hurt yourself if you fall. Your thumb then bends completely over the ski pole and a ligament can be seriously damaged. Have another ultrasound done at home to see how serious it is.

Mentally this is not nothing, being alone with your daughters on a ski trip. What if I come across something here? Repatriation doesn't seem like much fun for someone like me... I can switch off those fears, but that doesn't mean they aren't there in the background. And yet here I am. Day 4. Had beautiful weather and will continue to have beautiful weather in the coming days. From where I come... crazy... I used to go to Riederalp alone with Romée, but then Els was there. And the same with Odile. How strong I am now. My body is a bit older, and I can feel that when you have to ride like that all day long. But the mental and physical peace is much greater than in the past 23 years. Never in the past 23 years have I been strong enough to handle this. All stories. Changing your mindset is not enough, you also have to change your energy. And your environment. And if you change your mindset, your energy and your environment little by little, miracles can arise after four and a half years like now. Because this is a miracle, being here with my two daughters and also being relaxed.

So grateful that I can do this now. And if this is possible in four and a half years, what then after ten years? We continue because I want to see the world. Making music and seeing the world with it. Making music everywhere with people from other cultures. Record sounds and do something with them. Nepal and Tibet, Australia and Aboriginals, New Zealand and Maori, Ayahuasca in South America, ceremonies in North America, ... Sharing my music with the world and making a living from it. Blogging about my story. Inspire. Expanding love.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trpVW3rF0Kc We are now a week further. Just had a Tipi Ceremony. What abundance in my life. I don't have to pray for anything in my life anymore, it's all there. Please include gratitude in my prayer. It was wonderful with Romée and Odile in Les Menuires. And in the meantime, everything is going great with Charlotte. I like that woman. She is the answer to my prayers. Only abundance.

Like this. A night without sleep is quite tough. Love is all. x

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