Body and mind

At times like these I sometimes wished I had broken my leg. Then you can use it urgently. Then you say 'look, there's something wrong with my leg'. And then they solve that. It's not your fault you broke your leg either. That's just bad luck. Unless you really wanted to do a triple somersault in Jumpsky at 48, of course, then you might be somewhat to blame. But then again, they would operate on your leg and prescribe rehabilitation without too much judgement. People like to solve things. And preferably quickly. That also brings in money. The entire pharmaceutical industry naturally prefers to focus on things that are measurably solvable.

If you're going through mental hell, you can't go to the emergency room. In our society, even if you attempt suicide, they happily send you home the next day. Suppose you have an emergency. And then you say 'I'm not okay'. And then they ask 'what's wrong?'. And then you say that you are in incredible pain but you cannot say where or how. And then you are alone. You can of course register for psychiatry, but then you will end up on a waiting list of 6 months. I don't see that happening anytime soon with a broken leg. Sir, we can operate on that within 6 months, see you then. So then you sit at home, and no one comes with a fruit basket to have a chat. You need care, rest and connection and you end up in isolation. Mental things are fairly easy to treat, namely not. The treatment in most cases is not to try to solve anything. Nature, connection, dancing, singing, resting, sleeping, ... If as much money were to flow into mental health care as into 'physical' health care, a lot would change.

The whole separation between body and mind started with that idiot Descartes. There is no separation between body and mind. Healthcare is hypocritical in this regard. There is only a distinction between problems that can be solved quickly and problems that take time. That's what they create body and mind. And body is not your own fault, mind is. You can't fix a broken leg yourself, but you can fix a broken mind. Even with friends and family that becomes difficult. If you have a broken leg, no one will blame you. If you have a broken spirit, yes. Then people start attaching all kinds of things to it. Then they collide with their own pieces and traumas and past. If you have a broken leg, people act normal. If you have a broken mind, suddenly no one can act normally anymore. However, our brains are also made of matter. People don't want to know that. It must be solved quickly. We don't have time for such problems because we all have a life and ambition and dreams and above all we have to collect a lot of stones. We must be independent, autonomous, powerful and autonomous.

Maybe I'm not much better myself. Although. When I'm doing well, I'm there for people. Because I know what kind of hell this is that I'm in right now. Rich people can't imagine poor. It's a bit the same with mental problems. Everyone should be able to exchange hours with me for a few hours. It would make the world a more beautiful place. The strength needed to continue choosing life is immense. It's not that I don't see abundance in my life. It's the way I've had to do things for so long. With a body that cannot and does not want to relax. Shot to survive. And when I am in a mental emergency, as in these periods, hugs, messages, connection, body contact, visits, mail, ... What we do in life echoes in eternity help.