Plant puller

Today is a beautiful day and a shitty day. I'm 'Lieven sick' again and I forgot when the last time was. I've been dreaming about that for 15 years, that I would forget when the last time was. Lieven is sick, not just sick like most people. I have been struggling with my health for 15 years and the medical world does not know what is wrong. Feverish, sore muscles, inflamed gums, only able to think half way, tired, tired, tired. And yet there is nothing measurable. Then you will quickly become a plant leader. A profiteer of the system, a saw that wants attention. Yes, it will be, up your sleeve. If doctors and specialists don't find anything, it will probably be in your head and before you know it they will fill you with antidepressants. In the meantime I do have some answers, even though it took 15 years. Exhausted adrenal glands mainly due to autism and asperger's. A lot of stress and tension due to Asperger's, ultimately resulting in an exhausted body that can no longer straighten. And yet it's hard to answer when people ask what's wrong. You're autistic, Lieven, but no, you're not autistic, I know people who are autistic, and it's not you. Well, experienced experts, let's get started. Anyway, today is a beautiful day and a shitty day. I have forgotten the last time I was 'Lieven sick', and that is a good thing, because maybe this way the fear of losing control over your body at any time can finally disappear. Not getting answers to why I feel bad is one thing. Living with the certainty that your body can fail at any time is something else. Intelligent design.

Intelligent design (ID) is the pseudoscientific view[1][2] that "certain features of the universe and of living things are best explained by an intelligent cause, not an undirected process such as natural selection."

Yeah, right, well, okay, I have to admit, I bet more money on intelligent design than on evolutionary theory, but let's be honest, it's not that intelligently designed. What amateur designed the universe for God's sake? The bugs are simply innumerable. And I also received Body 1.3 Beta. Most of you have Body 2.0. Intelligent design, my ass. That whoever designed it dares to show themselves. That's probably why we never see 'god', he is too ashamed to show himself. The customers of his design are not satisfied. We will get through it, through today, like the thousands of days in the past 15 years. There must have been many days when I went to work sick because I was afraid of losing my job. There have also been many days when I had no choice but to stay home because it was too bad. Spartan warrior. I'm a Spartan warrior, even though I may look like a wuss. I've fought more in my little life than all the soldiers in WWI combined. No, not that now either :-), but man, I fought. I'm going to have to take more time to write about the last 15 years, about what has helped, what has healed, about the pain, the misunderstanding, the crises... It's quite a task. Peace out. No sharing. We know absolutely nothing in this life, not now, not a thousand years ago, nor in a thousand years. No one has answers to the most important questions. We can do important things, know a lot, know a lot, we can be president, we can be CEO, and yet we are all equal.

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first. Mark Twain.