Kambo 1 and 2
The first time I saw Kambo, I thought let's bring on Kambo the warrior, I can handle it. The courageous absurd hero Cardoen was shocked when 10 seconds after applying the poison my whole body started screaming. My heart rate skyrocketed and all I could think about at first was Where the button is to make it stop. You see, with an ice bath or WH breathing exercises, you can just stop at any time, crawl out of the tub, and breathe 'normally' again. With the frog there is no way back, there is only the way forward. Fighting it is useless and not a good strategy. You have to go through it.
10 seconds after applying the poison, your entire perception of time changes. The first 5 minutes seem to last forever, everything goes inward, deep, a concentrated kind of screaming energy is in your body, burning, the fire, absorbing it and looking for a way out. There's nothing fun about it, there's absolutely nothing fun about it, and both the first and second time I said to myself, NEVER AGAIN, NEVER DO THIS AGAIN. And now I'm going for a third time. Why? Because it gives me something that I would happily die for for half an hour.
What does Kambo give me? I can tell you about throwing up, drinking the water, the guidance, but I think the most important thing is what it has given me in the meantime. I suddenly seem open to a whole new world. I feel the wind as something connected to me. I feel it all over my body. A little more connection is perhaps the most important thing I feel. A feeling of nothingness is actually really important. Letting go. Freedom. The end of one chapter and the beginning of a new one. Floating somewhere in the no man's land between two chapters. Good things seem to be happening in my life, and worlds and people that I thought didn't exist suddenly come my way. Magic. Magic. Magic. I am actually relaxed at certain times. Little by little I am getting the trauma out of my body. And I am now convinced that frog poison plays a huge role in this.
Of course you have to be ready for it, and that is something you can only decide for yourself. You shouldn't do it to show that you are strong, it is not a 'trip', it is not a walk in the park. Does it take courage? Absolute. Is there anything scientific about it? What is that science?
I'll be going for a third time soon. Part of me longs, another part fears. Part of me longs because the feeling afterwards is wonderful, because it helps, because it purifies me and makes me carefree again. Afraid because you have to go through hell first, afraid because it puts my body under enormous pressure, afraid of the time that passes painfully slowly when you suffer.
We're still here. After 43 years I am still alive. It's unbelievable. There is something wrong with life, with the universe, with consciousness in general. We are born among other people and from day 1 we are conditioned to think so and so. We are made to believe that we know everything by now. We are made to believe that our ancestors were primitives and that we are enlightened beings. We are supposed to think in a way that is not threatening to the vast majority of people. People want something to hold on to, people want control, people want to be able to name things, but when you open the curtains and see the truth, you realize that control is pointless. Counterproductive. Time is relative, everything happens at the same time, and choice is an illusion.
Kambo taught me: "Let go and let yourself be carried away." Kambo taught me to relinquish control. Kambo has made me feel that I am one with everything and that our current thinking separates us all from each other. We create the world with our thoughts. Everything depends on faith and our thoughts about the world. The world is not projected from without, but we project the world within onto our eyes. Part of a collective consciousness but still the power to create things yourself. Ideas are just for fun. Ideas Are Just For Fun.
On to the next Kambo.
